I wanted to talk to God.
They told me now wasn’t a good time.
You can’t just up and talk to Him
they said
There are steps you have to take; certain things that have to happen first
they told me
My heart was heavy. My soul was empty.
You can’t just connect with the Lord Almighty.
their words echoed
lost and alone like me
But I tried again. I just wanted to connect with Him.
They reminded me that I wasn’t ready yet.
You can’t connect with God until you’ve settled your past
they said
You have to sort out your anger and attitude first; you have to deal with your troubles and your issues so that they are not your focus when you try to commune with Him
they told me
My mind froze, caught up in the dark cloud of those very troubles that I hoped God would blow away. What if He looked at the clouds, but didn’t see me tangled up inside?
Please, I just want to meet with God.
They reminded me that I wasn’t in a good place.
You don’t even know what you want to say
they said
Your heart is empty and your mind is scattered and your soul is dragging itself through the inky darkness
they told me
And that’s no state to be in if you want to meet with God.
I turned away in despair. I wept. I carried one word in my palm.
God?
I’m here
He said
I’ve already heard you
He told me
You don’t have to be in a good place to meet me
He reminded me
Because I am the One who meets you and
I find you wherever you are at and
I hold you close to My heart regardless
God…
Now is always a good time
He whispered
© Emma McGeorge 08/09/2015
